“The neglected middle child of mental health can dull your motivation and focus — and it may be the dominant emotion of 2021.”
This article explains exactly how I’ve been feeling the past few months. Not burnout, but aimless. Hope is pushing it’s way through, but it will take more time. I like how the article talks about “flow”. I think I have “flow” when I play a game with friends. The time melts away with laughter and goofiness, yet I can work at a small skill little by little and that me feel better (ok fine, my k/d ratio isn’t quite 1.0 yet, but I’ll get there). 😂
Nothing else gives me “flow” at the moment. I try to go for a walk now and again so that it makes me feel good – I’ll do that more now the weather is nicer. To beat the languishing I plan to see more and more friends IRL when I can. Now that people are getting fully vaccinated the hope is getting stronger. I’ll get energy from people when I’m ready to receive it. And the energy comes in the form of physical distance, not virtual. My brain can only handle so much virtual time.
Instead of hot girl summer, I want a safe girl summer. I’ll wear some favorite items of clothing, carry my safe girls items and breathe outside air again. I’ll keep my mask on when traveling or in crowds, and start taking photos again. I want to discover the city I’ve loved now that I’m living here. I can’t wait to hop on a plane again. I can’t wait to meet new friends that I’ve known virtually for what seems like an eternity. I want to end this languish.